she was someones baby doll

What a crazy past few days, its ridiculous how everything has been.
FIRST OFF daddy has been in a mood, what kind I don’t really know but it puts me on guard. That’s no bueno at all so here’s hoping everything will work out. I know it bothers both me and my step mom. We both try so hard to make him happy but now it’s a point of him finding his own happiness. Its so many things I think I could spend the rest of my life explaining the who’s and why’s. I still think I should be a therapist. I think I could really relate to some people. LoL eh well.

On a different tune, I have guy issues... well kinda. Okay well as for james, who knows, who cares. I’ll always love him in a way that cant be explained. :) Well valerie broke up with her boyfriend, Dwayne, and well he is cute as a button and highly inclined in the music department. Well last Friday night Leigh and I went to Midnight Rodeo because Ryan promised us that it would be fun. Well it was, for me, I don’t think Leigh Anne had as much fun, especially from the actions of Ryan. I love them both and I grow neutral. But Leigh Anne is my home girl. So I cant hate! Well the entire night I was the private dancer for Dwayne, for he was there dancing/drowning his sorrows there. Well I was lucky enough to get to dance quite a lot and then take him home, he was in no condition to drive. It was really refreshing even though I was about 90% sure where he lived. But I got him home safe, with Leigh following behind me. His truck was nice!! But I wont drool on the keyboard for that. Haha :)

Well I found out something that im proud to admit but I’m not sure how to put it. Not wanting to reveal secrets or anything of such but just still a moment I’m proud of. In youth, within your society you think who will become who in life, the genius, the kiss-up, the jock, the slut and who will go first. Well I was thought to be the wild kid who would be the fore runner for everyone to follow up from. Well im happy to know the exact opposite has happened and I am the only one to keep my virginity at this current date. It makes me proud to prove people wrong. It just makes me feel, well like a lady. It’s a feeling that cant be wrapped in words. Take it for what you want it’s a moment I am proud of.

Well its 12:28 and my sleep aid still hasn’t kicked in. I don’t under stand it. Eh well it shall happen soon enough. Till then I wait for sleep and new text message from either Jaime or Taylor.

Don’t ask what just brought this about but I just realized that I haven’t seen Jason Rychlik in forever. Makes me pretty sad :( haha My aunt and his grandparents where concocting something I know it the other day. Just got to wait and deal with their schemes. Haha oh well, I guess im off to bed, got to be up at 6:15. BLAH!! Oh well, I get to use the company weight room. :)

<3 meghan elaine